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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 07:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was scared of men, in general

She was in good health!

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All the time i was locked up.

Ive learnt so much.

(And it was in our own minds.)

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But ive been too sick for many years..

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We all went to grammer schools

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She loved him until the end.

I waited trembling.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I have no regrets .

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Have husbands and wives ever had a threesome with someone in real life? How did it happen?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

One cannot live in the past .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

What do you do when you are struggling to fall asleep?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

It is common sense that Joe Biden is ruining America and is unfit to be president, but why are the liberals still supporting him when Trump is obviously a much better fit for office?

I don,t even have a pension.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Why are the democrats keep insisting that there are more than two genders?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Who then, do I blame.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why did i forgive my father ?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He knew the spot.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I write beautiful poetry .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Put me off passion for life!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

What did i know ?

My family never makes their pension either.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So whats the point in blame.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Comes on , in middle age.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was seconnd youngest,

I think the readers, may guess!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She wouldn,t have been !

It was going to be , some day.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

This is soul school!.

But, we were locked up after school.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was very sick at this time too.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I will be 64.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We were not on the streets..

So, i spoilt her more .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My life is so biszare .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When she asked me how she looked .

Would this be the day?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im still living with it.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She found it foreign!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But it wasn’t much.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She married twice! .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And i lived it daily.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was 9 years of age.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He resisted the act ,that day.